I would like to say that I have been blessed with some of the best friends around. Many times, they have come to my rescue, more so in the last 6 months than ever before. It is comforting to know that one phone call and whatever I cannot handle will be taken care of by someone who loves me on the other end of the phone, even if they, themselves, are busy.
From the tangible to the intangible, my welfare is being looked out for by others all around me. When I needed (and still need) someone to cry to, they are there, though they understand I will not actually cry in front of them, and they don't push me there, either. I have been consumed with paperwork in the last six months, as well. Whether it was filing divorce paperwork, child support orders, work for my classes, or mortgage paperwork, it all gets crazy and overwhelming to me. I know that, in the end, I could have taken care of it eventually, but having someone to get me through that step today just renewed my spirit for everything else I need to tackle today.
Finishing up my paper for my final master's class has been a nightmare. Due to my own mistake and oversight, I ended up have to re-find all of my references from 18 months ago! All 45 of them! What a nightmare! It had me in tears for days. Thank you for helping me take care of that, even though it took days of your time, as well. When I get stressed that I won't finish, or that I want to quit, they jump to my side and keep me going.
Those are just the big crises I have been through in the last couple weeks, but there are several smaller ones, where others have jumped to my aide. Sorting out the maze of family court, organizing my house, caring for my kids when I needed a break, finding a way for us to get to NY for our vacation, covering my butt at work when I couldn't stand in front of a group of students without crying, getting me out of the house for a change, and just telling me it will be okay. Sometimes, just a facebook note that I am okay, have not lost my mind, and will get through whatever the crisis of the moment is makes me feel so much stronger. All these things have gotten me through the times when I wasn't quite as tough as I try to appear.
Through this entire process, I have learned to lean on those around me more than ever before. I am learning that my life does not need to be a completely closed book, and that opening up gives people the opportunity to offer me the help they have to give. I have learned that I am not alone in every adventure life throws my way, nor do I have to take control of everything, because others can, and will, do it.
Finally, the thing that touches me the most, is that when I say thank you, or I owe you, or any other term of gratitude, they all just smile and say you're welcome, in that way that tells me I never have to repay them. It's just what friends do.
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