An entry I started several weeks ago:
Tonight Alex asked me to read to him for the first time in maybe a year. I was busy, tempted to say not tonight, but then I realized what I was about to give up - a chance to just hang with my big little boy. I admit that one reason I had stopped reading to him is that he has gotten into bigger kid books - Harry Potter and the like- and I hate reading aloud. The thought of reading a book like that aloud, UGH! But, I went anyway, because I wanted to take advantage of the limited time I get with him anyway.
I went and sat on his bed and he pulled his book of choice out from under his pillow. My heart melted when I saw what he chose - Frog and Toad. I guess my big boy isn't so big after all :)
My Skylar has been a nightmare lately! She has been practicing for her teen years for 8 years now, but holy cow! She is really perfecting it quite nicely! She is mouthy, doesn't listen, rolls her eyes and talks under her breath, is a drama queen, and is really just not that much fun anymore. Two nights ago we had a family movie night/sleepover in my bed. I fell asleep before they did, big surprise, but when I woke up to find them sound asleep, I took one look at her precious face and remembered what a beautiful little girl she is.
I've been going through a really difficult parenting time. Trying to decided what is the best thing for both me and my children is not easy. Wanting the absolute best, but being unable to give it is a painful and frustrating process sometimes. What I have been reminded of, however, is that it's not perfection they seek. They just want to be loved and appreciated and cared for. Even though I am about as far from perfect as can be when it comes to parenting, I love them more than anything. That, in itself, will be enough to give.
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